Self Centered

I swear, by my life and my love of it, that I will never live for the sake of another man, nor ask another man to live for mine. - Dagny Taggart

Downward Spiral

Bad News

Shock 

Grief 

Worse News 

Sobbing 

Exhausted 

Anxiety 

Distraction 

Sadness 

Fall Behind 

Abandonement 

Eat Carbs 

Messy House 

More Anxiety 

Sleep In 

Touch Myself 

Bite Nails 

Dirty House 

Couch Potato 

Hungry Cats 

Touch Myself some more 

Take Nap 

Eat More Carbs 

I'm fat 

I'm incompetant 

I suck 

What Day is it?

...

Rescued

Loud Talking 

Stupid Talking 

Voice Annoying 

My space Violating 

I'm losing it 

The floor opens 

Instant Relief 

Fall into his Arms  

                         .........To Safety

I learned from him

Normalcy 

Quiet 

Listening 

Dispassion 

Searching 

Self Control

Vulnerability

Sorrow

Betrayal

Regret

Self

Resilience

I consider it a privilege (aka His Words)

narcissistic, histrionic, penury, inertia, weepy, sophistry, blather, non-sequitor, nut house, above reproach, Suspension of disbelief, I consider it a privilege, Idiots! All of Them! 

(apathetic smirking shrug that made me laugh) 

My wife is an exceptional physician 

Fuck them. What are they gonna do? Take my license? 

So, what, yur gonna jump off a cliff? 

It IS a good way to say Fuck You! to those you leave behind 

However, if you are planning to 

Off yourself, 

A gun in the mouth works best. 

But, if it didn't, don't expect me to take you back 

Because if you are not willing to try 

Why should I? 

 Ok,then see you next week. 

 (Never again)

...

Teenagers

Eat a lot
Talk a lot
Move a lot
Listen to loud music
Make me laugh

Masturbating

When my daughter
and her friends
are knocking on my bedroom door,
The words
"Please don't come in. I am busy"
Take too long
to get out

You Think I Am

You think I am Funny
You think I am Pretty
You think I am Strong
You think I am Happy
You think I am Normal
You might even think
You like me
But that's only because
You don't Know me

..friends..

True Blue Friends 

With us through the good 

And the good 

Usually, 

(and we suspect it) 

the more we need them 

the further they stay 

but we still call them

..friends.. 

So, 

we Will Be lonely 

when we are sad 

But Maybe ... 

we won't have to be lonely 

when we are happy 

The Good

some say only the Good die young
but most actually die later
and it still sucks