(apathetic smirking shrug that made me laugh)
My wife is an exceptional physician
Fuck them.
What are they gonna do?
Take my license?
So, what, yur gonna jump off a cliff?
It IS a good way to say Fuck You! to those you leave behind
However, if you are planning to
Off yourself,
A gun
in the mouth
works best.
But, if it didn't, don't expect me
to take you back
Because if you are not willing to try
Why should I?
Ok,then see you next week.
(Never again)
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7 comments:
We talked about the efficacy of jumping -- bridge, cliff, building -- his thought was a 4-storey would do the trick nicely. I pointed out that one had to be certain that there were no gardens below to inadvertently cause a soft landing.
Thank you for sharing. This made me smile and laugh.
Are you talking about Dr Steve Rosenthal psychiatrist? One notion he was oblivious to was "practice what you preach". He was deluded by the notion that you can separate the two within the context of being a licensed professional in the area of healing minds. Our friend Steve was like a brilliant mechanic. He understood, tinkered with and would given the opportunity fix the mind's working. But where he was incompetent and even dangerously delusional was in the area of real life. Putting it simply, he was an excellent mechanic, who could fix any problem in the car but knew hardly anything about driving the car correctly towards a destination, the destination being a normal human life. Unfortunately, he could not or was unwilling to separate the two and it was his patients and eventually himself that paid the price. He was a brilliant mechanic but also a lousy drunk driver who drifted between the notion that he could drive and the honest albeit convoluted confession that he did not know jack shit about driving. A very confusing situation for his patients who could see the tangible benifits of his therapy but kept being pestered by the gnawing feeling that there was something terribly wrong with this man. He was human. He had a skill (fixing cars(minds)) but was dreadfully immature and confused about the drive. The tragedy and the crime was that he was in a position of power and people approached him with predetermined trust. He took lot of people for a ride. He made a lot of money. He fixed minds. But he did not have the humility to back off in areas where he was clearly incompetent (driving). All in all he hurt more than he helped. He fixed cars but directed them towards a cliff or worse, goaded them into a desert or a jungle. He was human with an exceptional skill. He tried to be more. It caught up with him. He got what was coming to him. We all do. Please contact me if you want to discuss or offer support. I was a patient for 5 life-altering years.
Sandeep,
thank you for your thoughts. I would like to reply but it is too much for me to post here today, and I don't know how to contact you offline. I will probably reply more here another day.
Sandeep,
I have wanted to reply sooner, but haven't made the time. I am sorry that you had such a bad experience and know that Dr Rosenthal liked you or he wouldn't have continuted to work with you so long. I am curious if you were always angry at him or only after you lost him. While I worked with him I was confused and upset often, but I have to say I was so shocked and saddened to hear what happened to him, most of my anger went away. But I was fortunate to have a support system already in place.
I think that Dr. Rosenthal would agree with your analogy to his being a brilliant mechanic. Well I think he may be insulted by being called a mechanic, but he would agree that he was much better at seeing what was really going on in others lives and minds than he was at making the best choices in his life. I worked with him for over a year and eventually left because i saw some of the things that you saw. But then over the next few years, I began to more and more appreciate what he did and how he did it.
I know what happened to the last patients he was working with must have been devastating, and I am grateful that I had the opportunity to leave him on my terms and when I was comfortable with it. One thing that I appreciate about him, but I think you didn't like is that he did things his way, the way he thought would help the most, not in the way that would make him the most popular. I think of him more as a coach who pushes you further than you want to go and you don't appreciate it for months or years later. I also want to say I think it is unfair to say "he made a lot of money" suggesting that it was a motivation. There were so many other things he could have done with his experience and education, and he chose about the least profitable.
I would like to hear more of what you have to say. I will post an email address since I don't know how else to communicate with you offline.
Dagney,
thanks for replying. I agree with almost every thing you said. The rest that makes me angry, I will maybe reveal at a later time. You are right, maybe I was harsh in my judgement. Ironically this harshness is something I copied from him. lol. He was a father figure to me, so I used to ape him to an extent.
You are right, it was devastating. And I had no social support structure in place. None whatsoever. Just had to bottle it up, till everything blew up about two years ago and I began to deteriorate mentally. Much better and on the up and up now. And like you I have begun to appreciate him more and more with time.
I met him the 2nd week I moved to Washington DC and my then only support vanished from my life, so it was just me and him for 5 years. Then you know the rest.
As macabre as this might sound, I need to know the details of what happened. I loved him like a father figure and coach/mentor. It won't disturb me, it will only let me lay it to rest.
I know only scant details, he had an affair with a patient, she attempted suicide, he lost his license, he committed suicide. Is it true? Did he have an affair with a patient.
And how did he kill himself, gun? what means? I need to know to let it go completely. I have forgiven him a long time back. I just need to know. He had so much influence on my life. I need to know.
Dagney, thank you so much for your patient, understanding reply to my bitter, angry post.
I feel a lot less alone and a lot more at peace with it.
you can email me at sbarna992@gmail.com or just post back on this site. I check it.
take care,
-Sandeep
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